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Almost every HP visit now comes with a ship. This was again the second of two I watched float passed me this morn and I just relaxed and watched. And drank coffee. Deeming today's visit a good one.
Today my thoughts drifted toward my weight. I think about it a lot and almost never write about it. Considered a losing battle and sounding like a broken record keep me from complaining out loud.
But its on my mind pretty much everyday and I keep wondering how much my quality of life would increase with a loss.
When I think about it I have so much more to gain than a "regular" person. With all my outside activity's one would think that it would be a no brainer to really get serious. Just think of how much more enjoyment I would get out of riding and racing my bike.
And since thats such a big part of my life and work one would think I would be on that.
I had a taste of it back in 2008 when I separated from my wife and lost 40 plus pounds for reasons I cant explain. I didn't diet.
As much as I try there is no way I can replicate what happened to me that summer. I remember I rode a bike a ton. I ate simple. I didn't sleep much. While I wish I could lose weigh there's no way I could do it that way again. It could have killed me.
Another awesome reason to lose weight is that fact that I have to sleep with a CPAP machine. Its a machine with a small mask you put on at nite that forces air so you breath easier. I was diagnosed with sleep apnea in 1998 and have had one ever since. However, after my loss hit the 30+ pounds mark in 2008 I no longer needed it and slept well without. That lasted about 6 months. It was a very sad day for me to realize I gained enough weight back to warrant its use again. I didn't talk to anyone for two days.
Racing is another reason. I love to race bikes. Its a blast. And I do not need to win. But its almost a necessity for me to at least be in the game. I need to be able to at least mix it up so I can tell a story about it.
My thought now are since I just turned 50 there is a better opportunity to hit up a Masters cat. And not 1\2 Masters.... the 4\5 Masters. Track and Cross would be awesome and would be my focus. Of course MTB. But right now I could not even ride at that level with all this weight.
Do I have goals? You bet. Tons of them. Too many in fact. As time go's on I switch from goal to goal to fit my failure at the time.
I need one goal.And since my motivation it tough to kick start its gatta be a fun goal. Not just numbers. That's boring.
Since its cross I wanna do how bout this...
High goal: Race Worlds Masters in Louisville and finish mid pack (50 percentile)
Medium goal: Race CrossVegas and finish midpack (dealer category)
Low goal: Race WCA Masters 4\5 and finish top 5 (or close)
Today even the low goal is well out of my reach. The others Im not even sure I can do even with weight loss. But throw in just a little organized training and ????
Anyway, this is the stuff I think about when Im at my HP or just in the store staring out into the floor.
This is the time of year we all think of this stuff and I'm not alone. On the group rides you hear a lot of talk like this with sentences ending with "but next year....". A lot of 2011 race plans being dreamed up nowadays.
You can never start too early I guess.
DLD